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Warning: whiny, self absorbed drivel can be found below.
January 11th, 2010
Sigh. S I G H. January sucks, ya’ll. Christmas is all put away. It is too early to think about Valentine’s Day. Birthdays are kinda boring now that I am a grown up and all. It has been super cold. I am bored with entertaining my kid 24/7. Nothing exciting is going on, and the truth is that I feel sort of sad. Do you think I have this?
I was going to try to start weaning off of the Lexapro again this month, but I think I need my full dose right now. Plus some chocolate and a day in the sunshine.
I was thinking today that I wished I was just super irresponsible and got a credit card and charged an awesome midwinter tropical vacation. Unfortunately even if I were that capricious (hey, I am a Capricorn! TANGENT! Look at the traits for a Capricorn, responsible, ambitious, resourceful, dictatorial, outgoing, distrusting, very loyal. As a rule I think horoscopes are a bunch of BS, but man is that ever me.), I am married to the most circumspect person on the planet and so that would NEVER happen. Cash or not at all for us Huckablogs.
I have no idea where this post is going. You think I feel bad about leaving my twenties? I don’t THINK so, it is as my dad would say, better than the alternative. I do wish that I did not have more grey hair than my mother and MMIL combined. Come on guys, give me pep talk or something to get me out of the funk.
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Man, are we ever in the same boat right now. I was actually looking at tropical vacations earlier today. I actually had to use my credit card (the disney rewards!) earlier this week since my debit card was deactivated and I’m still waiting for a new one. Just then, I remembered that I have about 6k to fall back on in case of emergency… a Hawaiian Tropic emergency…
No!
We will be strong and not be financially reckless! We can help each other through this.
After tonight’s insanity, I’m prepared to take Zoloft for the rest of my life.
God never gives us more than we can handle, but he also wants us to be happy. I would have a long, sit down discussion with your doc before weaning yourself off Lexapro. Maybe they know something that might work without you having to take medicine.
I’m always here if you need someone to talk to. Gotta return the favor
I understand your funk because I’ve personally experienced them years ago when I was a stay at home mother. I recall a certain man, whom we both love dearly, telling me, “I don’t care what you do, go to school, go to work, volunteer, but you need to do something to get your eyes off yourself” (as you stated in the heading of this post) and focused on something else. How about preparing a four hour training session on missions in Sudan for UMW? That is something I heard about today and thought of you with your International Politics background and your heart for African missions. Let’s talk about it.
Also, anyone who knows me will question how I know this, but some meaningful daily excercise will activate endorphins, you’re feel good chemicals in your brain. To paraphrase Brother Jamie’s Sunday sermon, take a hike!
I always feel energized and good about myself later, you’d think I’d always make time for excercise in my day with that knowledge.
In the meantime, I love you and if ever you need to talk it out, I’m right here.
The thing is that I really do enjoy being a SAHM, so I don’t want it to sound like I wish I was doing something else….I just hate when it is too cold to be out and about and we don’t get to go to all of our activities. I like t best when we are BUSY!
oh and Amanda! As far a the Lex goes, I really want to see how I would do with out it. My body has regulated it self hormonally and I want to see if I am still having symptoms. I hate being on meds if I don’t really NEED them. Plus, as you know I am sure, SSRIs have some side effects that it would be nice to get rid of.
How do you know how much gray hair I have…it’s all covered up! I agree with Grammy in one respect; finding a creative outlet helps with the fulltime-at-home-doldrums. I also agree with you: don’t stop the meds now in the darkest, coldest part of the year AND get out in the sun. Exercise helps with serotonin production and that helps with moods, so get outside and take a walk and I bet you’ll notice a lift in your mood. Well, gotta bo fix supper for one certain GRANDson.
oops…spelling error…my apologies
I think being in a funk is a necessary part of life (so long as it ends before it starts to affect said life, of course). It forces us to take a time out, get all obsessive and thinky, and then eventually dive back in. I’ve been known to give myself the “I could be an AIDS orphan in Africa” speech to remind me how lucky I am and how much I should appreciate where I’m at. And I’ll be leaving my 20’s behind in March, too! Happy birthday!
SSRIs do have horrible side effects but so are the withdrawal symptoms. I’ll totally back you (and be available for 24/7 support) if you want to kick them for good, just make sure you talk to your doc first. They can wean you off of it to minimize any withdrawal that way you know that you’re seeing the real you and not just the insanity that your body goes through when it’s trying to get rid of the remnants.
In the past few days I have said and done things that scare me, and I do not want you to go through that if there is any way to prevent it.
You know I love you and would never try and talk you out of anything (it’s pointless anyway!) but I will be here to support you and do anything I can to help.
Best of luck!
I’m totally here for you if you want to dump the pills. If you don’t have to be on them – don’t be on them.
Remember – there are, of course, withdrawals. Honest to God ones that suck. And, of course, there are the ones that we put into our head and make real. If, and when, you want to quit – be in the right mind and EXCITED about it – and not anxious.
I still, on occasion, have withdrawals from all the Prozac that pumped into me when I was younger. It makes me very happy that I am no longer on it.
And if you need to chat about just being blue? Of course you have my ears. I can listen for hours.