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To Whom it May Concern: Getting it off my chest.
June 21st, 2008
This is one of those “therapy” posts. It may just sit in my drafts box indefinitely. Maybe not. Feel free to skip it and move along.
To Whom it May Concern:
You have hurt me. Even worse? You have hurt US. We all embraced you with open arms, we loved you, we gave to you all that we had. You took and took and took and We kept on giving.
When I found out about you, I was thrilled. I was on your side. I pushed others into accepting and loving you. I thought we could be more. I thought you could fill a hole I thought we had. I gave in every way, and defended you….to others and to myself. When I caught on to your game of take, take, take, and I stopped giving so freely, you cut me out. You tried to make me the bad guy. You tried to separate US. Luckily we are stronger than you.
Now you are alone, separate by your own choice. That would be fine, good even, if you were not trying to take one of US with you. I am terrified of the hole that will be left if you succeed. Physical distance we can handle, but cutting all ties would leave a gaping wound that no amount of replacing or substituting could heal.
You have gotten so much from US. You can make it on your own, and we have nothing left to give you, you rejected our love and respect, and it will not be re-offered. At least not any time soon. I guess time matures everyone, you….and I included. Will you stay long enough to find out if there is nothing in it for you?
I am responsible for the emotional well being of someone who all of US love. I will not let the acid, the bile, the miles, hurt him. Have you not noticed he was even missing from your life? I can assure you that is a loss, a monumental void.
I would tell you to get lost already, to leave US all alone, but I think that some of US are kinder than I am. And I care about hurting them. So I will keep my mouth shut, go through the motions, and hope pray for a change.
Sincerely,
Hey You E. Disappointed-Huckablog
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I was just asked if this was about my brother. NO! He may irritate the hell out of me sometimes, but I love him very much, and would never want him to “get lost”. In fact, I want him to come home!
I hate to say it, but I have come to the same level of frustration and don’t really see any way around it. It’s not for a lack of trying on our part, believe me. We have tried, and tried, and tried, and tried…..it just doesn’t seem like the favor is ever returned.
Painfully wounded to the depths of my soul–you’ll never know how much.
TheHusband
I understand frustration and hurt and pain on as personal a level as I think this post speaks, but only God can move each of us to a place of peace and love, in spite of (rather, because of) any frustration, hurt, and pain.
Believe me, I have had way more than my share of all 3 in my life from my earliest memories and into my adult life–and have finally reached a place where I just refuse to allow the 3 to exist in my mind and heart.
I ask that you consider not answering inquiries as to whom this is to or about and then to pray about taking it down as it has served its purpose of getting things off your chest. Because I know you’re hurting, but feel the post will serve no positive purpose in the long run–only God and your faithfulness to Him will accomplish that. I speak from my own personal experiences; for which I prayed and have been granted God’s Divine ability to forgive and move forward. I pray the same for you.
I think Luke 15:11-25 is especially appropriate to reference within this comment. Beyond all frustration, hurt or pain is an abiding love that will never change regardless of the actions of others…for those for whom you care and love most and are concerned about, continue to pray and ask for God’s Divine intervention and resolution. And remember, His timing and methodology will not necessarily be yours or mine…as I have had to learn sometimes with great difficulty.
I love you all.
I have not, and will not answer inquires as to who this post is about. I am not convinced that anyone (except The Husband) knows who this person is. The person does not read this blog, and I have had several people email to say that they found this post therapeutic for themselves, so I will not be taking it down. Thanks for the scripture, prayer is needed all around.
Also, The Son was worn out from playing with his Gigi and Pappaw so hard! I had to wake him up from his nap at 5:15!
MMIL your scripture is helpful to me on another issue as well. Thanks!
Grammy and HeyYou I’m glad the scripture reference found purposes beyond my own needs. It’s amazing, but several things the pastor said in addition to the scripture was exactly what I needed myself. Which was good since I was trying hard to listen rather than wonder how TheSon was doing in his class with his teachers and new friends. Turns out, he was absolutely adored by one and all and adored them back.
As for TheSon….what a glorious day and a half that was!!! We’re already looking forward to the next big weekend. Thanks for your trust in us with the care of your most precious family member.
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